09092010 to 120910 BKK trip with hubby n co
Didnt tk any photos and all this photos are taken frm (i forgot her name) hahaha! I fall sick right on e sec day of e trip hence no photos taken n v v little of shopping.. how sad! :( And i wan to apologise to hubby for spoiling e trip due to most of e time he acc me in e apartment.. And and and i also want to thanks him too ((: No more bathtub !!!

Blog tomorrow!! Superrrrr LAZYYYY!

At times its always good to be alone doing some soul searching.. For now, i really need to find a job and a job that i can wrk from home so that i can look after my dearest as well as earning more money..

Anw abit over for me this week cos i've been out drinking for the 3 whole night, and my ahyi jus kp me.. At times i hate it when he scold me due to drinking or staying out late cos he's also doing the same things!! Bt he can really make me laugh like mad and i realise i can both love and hate him..

Okay, i gonna get myself change and go to tea garden for my supper..
AND i wanna learn to use twitter so dion, u better teach me!! =D

U push all ur way through and made me convince, big congrats u did it.. Till i realise everything was jus a lie, i don knw how you gonna make me convince again, i don knw how to believe in e words u say, i don knw how should i face u or shd i say how u shd face me? I don knw whats wrong with all the fcuk up things going on and on, i don knw why e fcuk my life became like this.. A wrong step in life? Regret? I shouldnt come to all this point and i cant.. I've so much to think, so much to worry, so much to scare but why things jus cant goes smoothly for me? Isit too hard for god to grant wishes? I don ask for much, all i wan is jus to be happy, to have my happiness thats all.. It takes two hands to clap, tyvvm for the things u do..

I dont know what got into me to make me feel like blogging at this time! And actually i gt nothing much to blog abt also la, LOL! Cos frm mon to thurs i'm looking after my dearest prince, fri and sat was drinking.. Let me recall what have i did over e last weekend........ Fri was mj-ing with qin, zg and kt thn was Guess Where 2 with qin, gin, kenny, kel n cai after that meet amerllia n her sis dwn Df to find hubby.. Its definitely a FUN night cos idk how i got home!!! LOL!! As for sat, stayed hm as hubby nt gg either.. Sun went back mum place to fetch baby back home and have steamboat, how nice!
I'm craving for mac's mcwings now, and idk shd i order and gain few kg when i FINALLY slim dwn.. When i was preg i used to eat as much as i can and i don even bother hw much i gain bt now!!! AWWWWW~! Anw i'm really damn tired but i just cant sleep !!! :( And i just hope aug come fast, cos im scared la! And when im out with baby i've to bring him back home before sunset which im gonna have a hard time every sun cos i wake up e sun also going to set alr!!!

I finally have time to update my blog n i knw my blog has been rotting!!! I'm not lazy okay?! Jus tt im really tired this days, n tt idiot has been holdin on to e com almost 24/7!! HAHAHH! Okay, i've been enjoyin myself on e weekend ever since my confinement end AND ITS GREAT TO HAVE BACK THAT LIL FREEDOM!! And i've slim down to 49kg after giving birth 4mre kg to lost to get back my usual weight during pregnancy was like 65 kg can?!! N N N i'm able to wear back my jeans! how great!! (: Motherhood life is getting mre stable for me, though at times its really tiring bt seeing him smile n look at u really brighten my everyday (:

16th July White bar & Hollywood
(amer, qin, mh, james n co)

24July Neverland & Df (hubby, qin, thong, kk and co)

Presenting my precious botak (:

Damn cute right?!!! hahahahahahah! Everyone is saying he look like father instead of me, how sad! Everything back on track, i love my life now n i seriously do.. =D MWACKS!

woohoooo! 3 more days and that's it.. To all my dearest, im coming (:

- I hate queen size bed!
- I hate year 2010!
- I hate when i feel depressed i'm unable to go out!
- I hate not being my own self!
- I hate myself giving f attitude!
- I hate having those feelings!
- I hate being tied!
- I hate being wht im now!
YES! AND I HATE MY LIFE! JUS FUCK IT!

-I love single bed
-I love year 2009
-I love drinking with everybody
-I love going out as and when i like
-I love getting high frm drinking
-I love freedom
-I love the past me
YES! AND I START TO LOVE EVERYTHING IN E PAST WHICH I NVR TRIED TO LOVE BEFORE!

I used to dislike staying home in the past till now i realise how much i wanted to move back.. Cause that's the only place whr i can be myself and that's the only place i feel loved..
I used to have a fun and stable life.. I used to enjoy my life to the fullest..

Everythings over.. Huiwen no longer alone now! She've a little one to look after.. After giving birth i realise i've really grown up and becomin more responsible..

I hope i'm rich so i dont have to rely on anybody now,but too bad i'm not.. And that's the reason why i wanna be independent, i want to earn lots of money for his future.. I'm learning to be independent and i guess i really need lots of support and i'm very sure one day, huiwen gonna be a successful career woman n a good mummy (:

Idk if things are gg well for the both of us as well as e marriage, but one thing i know for sure is "before and after marriage" the difference is really there.. We're no longer what we used to be, everything changed.. And its really never easy to mantain.. Idk how long our marriage can last, idk how long our feelings can stay.. Somehow or rather, i hope it last..